Lyrics K.A.A.N. – Tendencies Pt.1

Alright

So tell me right now my nigga whatchu want
Yeah
I sit in my room with a couple of blunts
Yeah, if I’m being honest then I was surrounded by lots of distractions
When it’s all said and done I pray the lord can forgive me for all of my ignorant actions
What am I asking?
I can’t believe in a deity that don’t exist
And if I reminisce then I’m blessed with the clearest
Depiction of pain that some people are causing me
I was like ten or eleven vividly remember my father walking out to leave me
He would step out the door but then never return
So one time I was turning to something that you’ve never seen
I’m a literal monster that might make a massacre
Masochist and mastermind
I’ve been ready to die
If you took a look inside my mind and I guarantee that you’ll go blind
What the fuck do we find
I’ve been living in darkness forever
My pen was never redefined
And I go back and forth in the system of psychoanalysis
Constant
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Fell and develop a hatred of people
Possessing the same complexion that I see
When I look in the mirror I can’t stand the image

Reflecting on everything I’ll never be
And my mother’s a fiend, I said my mother’s a fiend
She been a user for years
And if I remember correctly
It was her addiction that made me choke on my tears
And I’m making it clear I’m not longer a kid
Or a child, I’m a man that has run out of options
And I bought the biggest of pistols to pop it
At people I’m tweaking and see
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A victim, my seed and my future is dimmer
And bleak and if we ever meet I can never
Beseech, I’ll besiege you with bullets by pulling
The trigger from thinkin’ yo pockets are poorest
With pennies deplorable acable lurk
The committed and villain the venom up in nigga
Commended by givin’ the spirt
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The hatred I have is inherent
It’s oh so apparent that I wanted guidance
But never got that from my parents and
Paired with my confidence or self-esteem when I sleep
I can’t dream I see too many things that are
Stunting my growth it’s a constant regression
So I’m feelin’ lost, abstainin’ from everything
With the image that I have presented the people
Deseeded the pain that I’m feelin’ it deep
But there’s no pity party I’m starving so
I gotta eat it and I ain’t seen my mother in weeks
And I mean if I did it was never that long
Come to think about life and the path that I chose
So I need to expose all my issues and
Get rid of all my problems that I am possessing
With prominence, people are breaking their promises
All for a piece of percentage they get
From repent is dependent upon if you
Feelin’ the penance I live in depression I cause
A funeral procession my life ain’t a blessing
This stress and austerity barely showing
Dexterity all that I wanted was clarity
Dare say the mind is a rarity really
Embarrassing, fuck it I just saw a nigga
That’s walking and talking on a phone that
I can’t afford and I seen him out my window
This is a problem that he cannot avoid
Cause I’m broke as fuck and I tired of feelin’ stuck it’s time
I pressed my luck I bet I put the pistol
Right between his eyes I make him feel surprised
To see his own demise
And what I should describe
A plan I would devise
So why can I survive
A minute’s all I need
I breathe
Then decide
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