Текст Derez Deshon – Depression

(Ricky Racks, I see you, yeah)
Studio killa… Dazz
Yeah, ya ya…
Studio killa…

Got so many problems, I can’t hear myself think
I ain’t brush my teeth or bathe, I’m musty and my breath stink
And I’m losin’ gravity, don’t know why I can’t stand up straight
Screamin’ «fuck the world», emoji: ‘I don’t give a fuck’ face

Seein’ is believin’ what do you believe, ya
Do you know the pain you feel when no one else believes ya
Then they call you crazy, say you trippin’ and you seein’ stuff
Give you medication thinkin’ that the pain gon ease up
Bruh, I done seen fish in the sky, I done seen birds in the sea, ya, ya
I know the truth and the lie, I done fought angels and demons, ya
I never had a good role model, so please do not follow my lead, ya
Whenever I talk to my heavenly father, I drop to my knees, ya, ya, ya

I’ve been hurt so much I’m startin’ to hurt the ones I love, ya
I’ve been lied to so many times, I don’t know who to trust, ya
Depression got me mixin’ different drugs all in my cup
Screamin’ «fuck the world», emoji face: ‘Don’t give a fuck’, ya

Lately I been feelin’ like «fuck it all»
Beggin’ my girl to forgive me for flaws
Say she gon’ leave me, but I hope she don’t leave me tomorrow, ya
I’m already crazy, don’t know what I be if I lost her

Do you believe in flyin’ saucers
Fairy tales, ghosts and monsters
I feel like a alien from another planet
Ain’t no understandin’ (ain’t no understandin’)
I’m beggin’ for help

Got so many problems, I can’t hear myself think
I ain’t brush my teeth or bathe, I’m musty and my breath stink
And I’m losin’ gravity, don’t know why I can’t stand up straight
Screamin’ «fuck the world», emoji: ‘I don’t give a fuck’ face

Seein’ is believin’ what do you believe, ya
Do you know the pain you feel when no one else believes ya
Then they call you crazy, say you trippin’ and you seein’ stuff
Give you medication thinkin’ that the pain gon ease up
Bruh, I done seen fish in the sky, I done seen birds in the sea, ya, ya
I know the truth and the lie, I done fought angels and demons, ya
I never had a good role model, so please do not follow my lead, ya
Whenever I talk to my heavenly father, I drop to my knees, ya, ya, ya

The only thing that’s fascinating to my eyes
Is the sun is shining, moon and all the stars up in the sky, ya
I’m seein’ more than the average human eyes
In the darkness where I live, Lord let me shine, ya

I’d be lyin’ if I say I never cried
I’d be lyin’ if I say I never tried
I’d be lyin’ if I say I never prayed
I’d be lyin’ if I say I never strayed
In the trap house every night, every day
Sleep on the sofa with the 9 and the K
Found it hard to keep a smile on my face
Mixed emotion from my heart and my brain

I’m so mentally fucked up, I’m knee deep in depression
Whenever I express love, I come off aggressive
The doctor told me I’m crazy, momma said I’m special
Suicidal thoughts, grippin’ a 38 special